"I'm worried that you hate me"

Text message I received April 29th 12:32 AM:

Do you hate me? Cause I’m really sorry for being so harsh and having not called you in a long time. And I realize that it may not sound sincere in a text message but I am really worried that you hate me.
-rockstar

Do I hate you?
I’m not sure how to respond to such a ridiculous question especially when posed, late night, via text message 6 months after the incidents in question.

Let’s just reminisce for a moment, shall we?

How exactly were you “being so harsh”?
Was it how you showed up drunk to our date?
How you took me out with your friends then abandoned me to fend for myself, not knowing anyone?
Was it harsh how you spent the whole night bragging like a douchebag about how your song was going to be single of the week on iTunes?
Or was the harsh part how you spent most of the night with some other girl named Amy that I think I walked in on you kissing.
Oh no, wait!
Maybe the harsh part was when you were falling over drunk and I had to practically carry you home and you dropped your phone so I picked it up only to get a text from your supposed Ex saying, “I need you”.
It might have been harsh when you got upset with me for “expecting to much from you” and then said that you didn’t think you owed me a daily phone call.

I actually liked you a lot and you did nothing but hurt me and make me feel pathetic.
No, I don’t hate you.
I am disappointed in you and I am disgusted with you.
Wait, that was 6 months ago…
Now, I’m just indifferent.

Inspired by Letters to My Exes